I won’t lie to you, I am angry. I am that type of angry that makes you want
to cry, the type of angry that, if goes uncontrolled, can cause you to make bad
decisions. When I found out on Saturday
night that a jury of six women in Seminole County, Florida had found George
Zimmerman “not guilty” of murdering Trayvon Martin, my heart sank. The pain hurt in a way that is indescribable,
and it is a pain that will not go away anytime soon, and I don’t want it
to. I want to remember this feeling for
the rest of my life because it will cause me to not be complacent, to not
settle for the status quo, and to always speak up against injustice when I see
it. It’s the least I can do to honor the
memory of Trayvon. And while I didn’t
know him personally, I have family members and men in my life, who could have
been him. What this verdict symbolizes
to me is that the life of a person of color, especially African-American males,
is not valued. That somehow we don’t
matter, and that is not okay. While this
verdict was shocking, sadly, it wasn’t unexpected, and for those people who
were wondering whether or not we live in a post-racial society since we now
have an African-American President, that verdict was a stark reminder that we
aren’t even close. So, where do we go
from here? How do we move on? How do we heal? I wish I knew. What I’m standing on right now, as Trayvon’s
parents seem to be doing as well, is my faith.
It’s my belief in knowing that God “knows the end from the beginning,”
and I have to trust His plan in all of this, even though I don’t understand
it. I’m not supposed to. In the meantime, I will keep my brothers of
color covered in prayer. I will love and
support them, and remind them that regardless to what society may say, you are
of excellent worth if for no other reason than that you are children of the
most High God! Keep your head up!
Tara's Take Two
Monday, July 15, 2013
Thursday, July 11, 2013
Why Can’t Talent Be Enough?
Recently I went to see the cop-buddy comedy
“The Heat” starring Sandra Bullock and Melissa McCarthy. I’ve been a fan of Melissa McCarthy’s ever
since I first saw her on the hit sitcom “Mike & Molly” a few years
ago. What I liked most about her on that
show (a comedy centered on two people who meet at an Overeaters Anonymous
meeting, fall in love and get married) is how witty she is with the
one-liners. She is a big girl who is
just the right amount of self-deprecating that you laugh with her, and not at
her. I appreciate that. So, back in 2011, when the movie
“Bridesmaids” came out and I saw she was in it, I knew that I would at least
enjoy her role. I did. However, this was not the Melissa McCarthy who
I was used to seeing in primetime. This was
an edgier version. Still funny, but edgier. Then came “Identity Thief,” again funny
(seriously, every time she throat punched someone, I hollered), but this time
what I noticed is that the number of times I hear her use the “F” word was alarming. I was disappointed. Even with this, and because she’s my girl and
all, I still decided to give her another shot and support her latest movie, the
aforementioned “The Heat” (I’m a glutton for punishment, I know). I settle in, fully ready to laugh heartily, but
what I witness instead is a steady barrage of “F” bombs for about two
hours! You’re breaking my heart
Melissa! Now, don’t get me wrong, I can
take anything in its place, and in the proper context, but when the behavior is
gratuitous, and one uses profanity for the sake of using profanity (her liberal
use of the word felt more like it was ad-libbed, than scripted), I’m instantly
turned off. I find Melissa McCarthy to
be ridiculously talented and funny, so why does she have to cheapen that with
vulgarity? Is she overcompensating in
some way? Why can’t being funny be enough? One of the things I love about movies and scripted
television is the creativity behind it.
I love when a show or film evokes emotion; is thought-provoking; or
takes your mind off of the stresses of the day, for a little while anyway. However, some of the movies and television shows
out now (“reality” or otherwise) depend on profanity, sexually-explicit
behavior, and even violence to keep audiences engaged. Give us more credit than that. Trust that your audience is smart enough to
appreciate quality work, over something done to get a cheap laugh. See, while I still love Melissa McCarthy, and
love the message that it sends that a woman who isn’t a size 2 can draw at the
box office, supporting her next feature film project will not be high on my
“to-do” list again. Oh well, I guess
I’ll just have to enjoy those reruns of “Mike & Molly.”
Monday, July 8, 2013
In Memory of My “Friend”
Last week I was made aware that a
friend I had known from childhood had died suddenly. I was stunned because this wasn’t just any
friend, but this was a guy who was my first boyfriend: my first love. With the exception of some messages we traded
back and forth over Facebook (“How are you?”
“How is the family?” “How do you like living in Charlotte?”, etc.), we
had lost touch, and I hadn’t spoken to him in years, so why do I feel so affected
and heartbroken about his passing? Since
I heard the news, I find myself thinking about him all the time – even dreaming
about him. However, before the news, I
honestly can say that I didn’t think of him that much. Through the power of social media, I was able
to get a glimpse of what his life was like before God decided that his presence
was needed in Heaven. He was married,
had kids, and was even a Grandfather (a point he made sure to mention to me in
our message exchange last year. I felt
his sense of pride in the words he typed).
He was beloved by all who knew him, which did not surprise me because he
was a pretty cool dude (it was nice to see that others thought so as well). I can still vividly remember the night when I
first met him at a house party, in Brooklyn, more than twenty-five years
ago. I remember that he was sitting down
talking to some friends, and he and I looked at each other, and neither one of
us could turn away. I can’t remember
what happened next, but I know that shortly after that house party, he became
my boyfriend. He was tall, handsome, and
had the biggest prettiest eyes I had ever seen.
I was the envy of a lot of girls my age.
He made me feel special, made me feel that big girls were worthy of love
too, and we had a lot of fun together. He
said he loved my middle name (“Monique”), so he took to calling me that instead
of my first name, so much so that if he ever called me “Tara,” it sounded
strange. Although, to hear him say my
name (either name) made my heart melt, you know that knock-your-socks-off, butterflies-in-the-tummy,
weak-in-the-knees type of melt. Now, I
won’t completely romanticize this relationship because there were some hard
moments, and my heart was broken, but that is to be expected when you’re young
and in love (or so you think you are). However,
I have zero regrets about the time we spent together because in every relationship,
whether it is romantic or platonic, you should learn, grow and walk away with
great memories. I did that with
him. While we were not meant to be
together for the long haul, there is a part of me that wishes that I could have
gotten to know the man he was before he passed away. I wished we could have had consistent
communication. I regret that I didn’t
make more of an effort to do that. I will,
however, cherish the time I got to spend with him, and I will always hold a
special place in my heart for that young man who locked eyes with me, one night
at a house party in Brooklyn, more than twenty-five years ago. I will always love him.
So rest in peace my dear sweet
friend, and thank you for what you’ve added to my life. I’m forever grateful. By the way, if you’re looking for some tips
on how to navigate Heaven, my Grandfather has been up there for a while now;
he’ll show you the ropes!
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